Asperger’s and Me

I have Aspergers, or as some would say “high functioning autism”, though I hate the “high functioning” part.  If you have flu, it’s neither described as “mild flu” or “heavy flu” or anything like that, it’s just the flu.  So I have Aspergers, or autism.

Asperger syndrome (AS), also known as Asperger’s, is a developmental disorder characterized by significant difficulties in social interaction and nonverbal communication, along with restricted and repetitive patterns of behavior and interests.” (Wikipedia)

I was diagnosed back in the autumn of 2017 though I had an idea way before that, back in 2015, that I had Asperger’s.  It was a relief to get my diagnosis, I finally knew that I wasn’t the weird kid obsessed with art and stationery who was easily overwhelmed by things.  And neither was I the loner that was forever seeking acceptance from the other kids at school.

This presents several issues to me – I have a difficulty in verbalizing things and often have no idea what to say, sometimes what I do say can be classed as inappropriate.  I get overwhelmed by certain things, like certain noises or tones of noise and it can be difficult for me to follow a conversation in noisy atmospheres.  I have difficulty processing things like feelings and can bottle things up until I erupt.  I don’t handle stress particularly well, and can get stressed out pretty easily in certain situations.  I have a hard time concentrating if there is too much noise or other triggering factors.  I don’t like being interrupted when I am working on something as I like to focus fully on that and that alone, this means it can be hard for me to switch my focus to something else and then return to what I was doing before.  I talk too much about the same subjects, usually something I’m super interested in which can mean that I monopolise conversations.  I have a hard time deciphering what people can mean and need people to be really clear in what they say.

But, it’s not all bad…. I love arts and crafts and am really creative.  I do something with a high degree of attention and focus and have an eye for details which others may have missed.  When I set my mind to something I will work hard at it.  I’m a really fast learner, probably because I enjoy learning.  I love researching topics and knowing the ins and outs, whys and whats of subjects and will read every book or article about that topic too.  I have a BA (Hons) in Photographic Art and have a job.

Aspergers is just me, or I am just Aspergers and it is part of me.  I don’t really think about the fact that I have it, to me it is just part of my personality.

19 thoughts on “Asperger’s and Me

  1. I appreciate you sharing how Asperger’s effects you. It seems as if you have not let it hold you back and I admire that. You may have Asperger’s but it doesn’t have (control) you!

  2. Wow that seems so late in life to be getting diagnosed with it! But I’m glad that you have the diagnosis and that you are able to better understand what makes you, you!

  3. Hey Suzi, like you l always knew l was the odd one out. I finally got my DX when l was 44 – as they say better late than never – best thing that could ever have happened to me – finally l knew l wasn’t NUTS, although l was also DXd with Bipolar in 2004, but the medicals said that principally my Aspergers was the strongest disorder and l am totally cool with it in my life – although it did take some getting used for a few years.

    It’s an additional part to our personality, it doesn’t define us, we define us, but it’s like a really good pizza with a fantastic topping!

    So way to go ! 🙂

  4. Although I have not read up on the subject, I have this gut feeling that Asperger’s should be classified as a personality type rather than a disorder.

    Something that allows people to be creative and super focused should not be called a disorder.

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