I have Aspergers, or as some would say “high functioning autism”, though I hate the “high functioning” part. If you have flu, it’s neither described as “mild flu” or “heavy flu” or anything like that, it’s just the flu. So I have Aspergers, or autism.
“Asperger syndrome (AS), also known as Asperger’s, is a developmental disorder characterized by significant difficulties in social interaction and nonverbal communication, along with restricted and repetitive patterns of behavior and interests.” (Wikipedia)
I was diagnosed back in the autumn of 2017 though I had an idea way before that, back in 2015, that I had Asperger’s. It was a relief to get my diagnosis, I finally knew that I wasn’t the weird kid obsessed with art and stationery who was easily overwhelmed by things. And neither was I the loner that was forever seeking acceptance from the other kids at school.
This presents several issues to me – I have a difficulty in verbalizing things and often have no idea what to say, sometimes what I do say can be classed as inappropriate. I get overwhelmed by certain things, like certain noises or tones of noise and it can be difficult for me to follow a conversation in noisy atmospheres. I have difficulty processing things like feelings and can bottle things up until I erupt. I don’t handle stress particularly well, and can get stressed out pretty easily in certain situations. I have a hard time concentrating if there is too much noise or other triggering factors. I don’t like being interrupted when I am working on something as I like to focus fully on that and that alone, this means it can be hard for me to switch my focus to something else and then return to what I was doing before. I talk too much about the same subjects, usually something I’m super interested in which can mean that I monopolise conversations. I have a hard time deciphering what people can mean and need people to be really clear in what they say.
But, it’s not all bad…. I love arts and crafts and am really creative. I do something with a high degree of attention and focus and have an eye for details which others may have missed. When I set my mind to something I will work hard at it. I’m a really fast learner, probably because I enjoy learning. I love researching topics and knowing the ins and outs, whys and whats of subjects and will read every book or article about that topic too. I have a BA (Hons) in Photographic Art and have a job.
Aspergers is just me, or I am just Aspergers and it is part of me. I don’t really think about the fact that I have it, to me it is just part of my personality.